Grow

26 April 2007

There was a time sometime ago
When I believed in fairy tales
Of gallant knights galloping about
Always riding into the sunset
Dragons slayed and conquered lands
Princesses in fancy ball gowns
That was a lifetime ago
So far removed from me now

And I’ve grown up
Though I don’t know
If I’ve grown wise
And I’ve grown so big and tall
Though I still don’t know
If I’ve grown strong
If I’ve really grown up
Or merely grew old

There was a time sometime ago
When I would wish for love
And love indeed came to me
But several times it flew away
Taking with it everything of me
Now I pray for love never to return
The gaping hole in my heart
I proudly parade as badge of my naivete

And I’ve grown up
Though I don’t know
If I’ve grown wise
And I’ve grown so big and tall
Though I still don’t know
If I’ve grown strong
If I’ve really grown up
Or merely grew old

I stand in the mirror and see
What the years have made of me
Looking at the woman I am now
And the girl that I was
Twinkle in the eyes are gone
Face ravaged, a broken smile
Disappointments and regrets
Seething from beneath

And I’ve grown up
Though I don’t know
If I’ve grown wise
And I’ve grown so big and tall
Though I still don’t know
If I’ve grown strong
If I’ve really grown up
Or merely grew old

Untitled Poetry 2

26 April 2007

Sitting here with Tori Amos in my ears
She reminds me of the melancholy
I have over you, do you know?
Told everybody I’m just being a friend
Now that I’ve gone in deep and fast
Walls you built keep closing in on me
When’d you become this aloof?
How can you stay so cool?

We both know what lies ahead
People who might say we ain’t right
People who will say anything
You say you’re only being careful
Why listen to and worry about them?
Let down your guard, my dear
And just hold me close tonight
And let me see the you that you hide so well

This can’t be worth all this pain
I’ve harbored inside this frail, shambling heart
Walk away, I’ve thought so many times
So weak over you have I become
I cower and let you take away
Another piece of my heart bit by bit
A smile on my face permanently etched
With which to fool you, fool me

We both know what lies ahead
People who might say we ain’t right
People who will say anything
You say you’re only being careful
Why listen to and worry about them?
Let down your guard, my dear
And just hold me close tonight
And let me see the you that you hide so well

I’ve bared to you everything of me
Yet you haven’t fully shown me yours
Hide beneath the simplicity of your complexity
Throwing me a story or two
Let them say what they want to say
Let down your guard, my dear
And just hold me close tonight
And let me see the you that you hide so well

We both know what lies ahead
People who might say we ain’t right
People who will say anything
You say you’re only being careful
Why listen to and worry about them?
Let down your guard, my dear
And just hold me close tonight
And let me see the you that you hide so well