Que Sera Sera

I’m currently writing from my parents’ home in Marikina for some much deserved rest and relaxation. My back still hurts from the treatment I had to go through for the back pains I’ve been having for the past couple of days. But otherwise, I’m fine.

Actually, I’m more than fine. I got another e-mail from Martin this morning and there’s this one passage that made my heart skip a beat. There it was written in black and white – the words “in a relationship.” I was ‘kilig’ and in disbelief for a couple of minutes before reality hit me right smack in the middle. Okay, so there’s no more ‘you’ and ‘me’ but a ‘we?’

So what happens now? If there’s one thing that Martin and I completely agree on at this time, it would be that the odds are stacked high against “us” being viable. It’d take at least a year and a half before Martin finishes his studies plus we’re in two different continents. Within that particular timeframe, anything could happen.

Some might argue that with the advent of globalization, the world has become a smaller place. Technological advances have made the time and space barrier virtually obsolete making travel and communication easier. It’s true, I can’t argue with that.

Despite all this, one question still sticks - ‘would you still risk it?’ I mean, a relationship is hard enough even if both parties are geographically desirable. What more for people in long distance relationships?

One more thing that we’re both not sure of is if and when there’d be a vacancy at KAS’ Manila office by the time he’s done with his studies to allow him to go back to the country.

Aargh! So many what if’s and unknown variables!

Oh and I also brought up the topic of open relationships. I don’t know how he’ll react to it or what but I’ll just have to stay tuned to find out.

Jewel’s (the singer) song ‘Hands’ pops into my head for no apparent reason – “If I could tell the world just one thing/It would be that we're all o.k./And not to worry
cause worry is wasteful.”

Okay, I’d better listen to the song. It’s no use stressing myself over nothing.